I caught my wife cheating

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

I caught my wife cheating

I caught my wife having an affair
It all started when I got a really good job, the only problem with it, it has alot of travel involved. I thought we had a really strong marriage, so I trusted her...... about 5 months ago, I got home after a month of being gone, and we fought for about 2 weeks straight. we both talked about seperating, and we did. I went and got an apartment, we remained friends through the whole seperation, and got along really well. about 3 months ago she was beging me to come home and work on the marriage, I told her I didn't want to get back in the same situation we were and I didn't want to come back home. Then when I was in town I never even went to my place I just stayed with her, and every thing was going really good, I was taking time off work to spend with her, and I thought that maybe the seperation was all we needed to make the 180 degree turn in our marriage. So a month and a half ago I told her I would come home. Then she dropped a bomb on me and said she was with someone else while we were seperated, but it was all over and she loved me and only wanted to be with me, and grow old together. Stupid me I came home, was there for a month everything was going really good, not really intimant,but I was still hurt,but still loved my wife more than anything on this planet, and would do anything to be happy with her. 2 week ago I had to go to work and I new I was gone for about a month. But I figured we just had a fresh start and doing good. august 21 was her birthday, and I called her early in the morning and said I was going to be at work for about the next 14 hours and to wish her happy birthday, I'd call later. I was lying cause I was actually on the road driving the 7 hours to get home. I called the florist and had 2 dozen white roses and a cake made that said "happy b-day to the love of my life, I love you now and forever" picked up the flowers and cake park around the corner of my house and walked up to the front door with everything in my hand and she came running outside gave me a big hug and kiss, but she looked scared, and said I'm glad your home will you go to the store right now for me. Well I just dropped everything and went inside my bedroom door was locked and after I kick it in the guy that was fucking my wife jumped out the window, I felt so hurt and sick I didn't even go after him, she came in and said it was my fault cause I was never home and she was lonely, appologized over and over again, I just got back in the car and drove back to work. My ? to everyone is. It's been 10 years since we took our vows, we have 3 great kids together ages 3,6,8 all boys, and I really love my wife and have never wanted to be a weekend dad, but this hurts so, so bad and I feel responsible because I took this job. I feel like I abondoned my and in a way abondoned my kids, for my dream job. Now I don't want my job anymore. should I quit my job and take the pay cut to be home with my family ($140,000 - $45,000). I hate myself for everything that has happened. What should I do??????????